wanting new clothes but not wanting to be emperor

They say the possessions you keep and surround yourself with say a lot about you...and if you have the tendency to excessively hold on to things [guilty as charged] that you are actually holding on to your past life and not living in the present. That you will continue to be who you were rather than who you are, and more importantly, who you want to be.

At what point does an object stop being an object and instead become a memory, or a feeling, or a smile, or a wistful dream?

As someone who has been thinking about these things a lot lately, I have recently decided that maybe one of the best things I could do is to really get rid of everything. I mean everything. Granted, this is somewhat of an expensive proposition, and undoubtedly will not come to complete fruition...but for the first time I can remember (and I have moved quite a bit), the idea of getting rid of the majority of my stuff seems very freeing, and makes me very excited.

What is stuff really? There are items of necessity - like clothing. There are items of luxury - like jewelry. There are items of convenience - like sporting equipment. [if you're going to do something repeatedly it makes sense to be prepared]

At what point does it become more convenient to just re-purchase things rather than lug them with you everywhere? And is it really just that price point that matters, or is it the attachment to them on a deeper level that matters more?

I don't think it is possible to pare down possessions for the long haul to just a bag or two...but I know when I lived in Europe for a semester I went with two bags and I seemed to do just fine. Accumulating new things has never been difficult...it is getting rid of those memories that seems to be holding me back from being who I want to be rather than who I was.

"Be the change you want to see in the world" -Ghandi [I think this is applicable even on a smaller scale to your own life...be the person you want to become]

"Twice you burned your life's work. Once to start a new life, and once just to start a fire" -The Long Winters

Song of the Day: New Girl - the Long Winters

Why fi?

It's amazing to me how many wireless connections you can find, even in an assumed insular place such as a single-family home.

Now, I am all for ease of access to the internet. I love that I can occasionally find a park that provides internet service, I love free-loading when I'm travelling, and I love that when my connection to my secured network isn't working for some reason I can poach an unsecured connection from my neighbors.

My question is; what is this doing to us, if anything? Is the fact that I am being radiated by wireless networks (3 on full power, 2 on half power) sitting here in my bed having any effect other than computer convenience?

I have studied negative long-tern environmental effects too long not to be somewhat paranoid. Cancer is too prevalent in my family not to be somewhat paranoid.

That being said, I also don't feel strongly enough (yet) to look into the strength of the WiFi waves, or if they are that extremely different from any other waves we are constantly bombarded with...television, AM, FM, cell phones.

It just seems that there has been no second thought to the health ramifications; there has been more chatter lately of the impacts of high cell phone usage but never any mention of long-term Wi-Fi exposure. Maybe it is too new to have the results of any studies. Or maybe it is another form of survival of the fittest; as our environment changes (whether through the natural world or our own changes) only those who have the molecular structure to stay healthy will survive long-term.

Song of the Day: Too much information - Duran Duran

I'm a slacker

I thought this was appropriate, and true. And all those Karl fans were so concerned about my spreading rumours. At this point I haven't posted in so long I'm pretty sure even my consistent readership of 2 has stopped anticipating posts.

Good news on the "attempting to actually keep up with my blog" front: I'm not travelling for a while so maybe (not to be confused with 'likely') I'll post more

Time to get things done

sigh. So much to do.
prioritizing my list
needs to happen first

Song of the Day: So Much To Say - DMB

s things I like

Surfing, Soccer, Sand, Saltwater, Saltwater Taffy, Singing, Swing Dancing, Sundays, Saturdays, SAILING, Serendipity frozen hot chocolate, Serenity NOW, silliness, signatures, sounds, SUNSHINE, smiles, sad songs, sappy songs, songs, sweets, sending mail, stripes, solids, SKIING, snowboarding, snow, spades, steak and eggs, Santa



and Charleston

My momentary self-torture

Repeat song over
In my head, Chris Isaak sings
stupid catchy tune

Song of the Day: Somebody's Crying - Chris Isaak

The Power of Apathy

so, after an interesting weekend [interesting in the internal thought kind of way, not at all in the big-exciting-story kind of way] I have decided that I am done responding to people's drama. I don't know if drama is the right term. I am done having people guilt me for completely inconsequential things.

Now, if I were a malicious person or had bad intentions, I would think it would make sense and I would be deserving of guilt. But I am finally realizing that there are times when people make a really big deal of nothing and I'm tired of responding to it.

Maybe it is my constant need to make sure those around me are happy that I am actually the one making a bigger deal of it...it might be that it's just their reaction and they are not actually that angry.

Either way, I'm done, and it feels GREAT! I complain about other people having so much drama and how I'm trying to be drama free, but I think that by allowing for these big reactions, or even acknowledging them I am merely feeding into this drama system.

Our own happiness can only come from ourselves and we set the terms of our own reality. So why am I constantly catering to appeasing others when all it is doing is increasing the stress put upon myself? It's their problem, not mine. From empathy to apathy.

We'll see how it goes, but to be completely honest I feel so much better all ready. Maybe because for once I am finally willing to put myself first. And that makes me smile.

Alright world, let's do this!

:)

Song of the Day: Move Along - All American Rejects